30 July 2007 ( couldnt post it, so posting it now) =)
HEY HEY!! i am like in school now! i had presented my second pitch already, the comments by Nick is not bad, however we are still unsure the final result. i NEED prayers! =)MEL! Deal set right?
It is not Richard's turn, so POOR THING!! *laugh out really loud!*
I think he is starting to panic already,he is looking at my screen, and seem to silently agreeing with me, oh well, he also have panic attacks like me!! *look at Richard* *do funny expressions* He is doing funny expressions at me also, lame pork! He love doing the poke poke deal, everytime we play, he will always act cute and then say, " pok,pok"
Dont you agree richard??? =)
Okay, i am listening to my other classmates pitching also, so i shall get ideals from their pitchs =)

know what?
Just now, Nick was asking who will be next, after Azli, it is Sebbie, however he have not reach yet , so Nick was like, " RICHARD" then Richard jumped up, i think he is like super scared! then Sebbie just arrived on time! =)
it is now safe for him, Richard, i think you really need to thank God le!

God! i need a MILLION HANDS!! So that i will be able to multi-task better, after thinking for a while, i realized that it also means that i need five THOUSAND BRAINS! So i will not be over-working this little pea-brain of mine.

Today i was once again reminded by my grandmother,
Popo, today i felt the empty seat for you, the one always beside Gonggong, with a pouted lips and a grumpy yet adorable face asking for a black stout, which no matter what, you will still getting, despite how we love you and dote on you, worrying about your health. Asking mummy to sit beside you, so that she can drink with you, taking a lot of te side dishes to distribute them to us, with us always sayin, " thank you popo, enough already." i cannot really recall once that you will just be eating, caring for yourself, if that happens, i think i will be super surprise.
i am no longer crying, because i finally understood that you leaving us is only temporary, the eternal reunion has yet to come, but with you in my heart, i will have more strength and motivation, i know that, even if the world turn against me, i will still have you and God to love me! =)


~ love you as always!~

This is being drawn by me on Fuer's hand, during CMS lesson, i think while the lecturer was talking, my hands were bored so i grabbed Fuer's hand to draw, she is a sweet babe! because she did not object nor mind, just left her hand for me to decorate. However, i also did not disappoint her, because it is not done badly, agree? =D



I drew on Wi liang, Chard and my own hand as well, no matter what, have to be fair, i scribbled and decorated all the hands, and i am so proud with my work!! using black ink pen is good, you know why? it gives you a bit of illusion like as if it is a real tattoo.



I drew things on their hand yesterday again, however, this time i did not draw on my own hand! *laughs* because after drawing for them , i felt very lazy. this is Chard's hand! it is a joke between Ida, Chard and myself. That is why you see a "malnutrition" monkey over there.



Wi liang's hand was fun to draw on, when i was drawing the guy's pants on his hand, he was like saying, why the legs look wobbly? then i told him, it was crumpled and not wobbly legs, because i wont include Wi liang's own leg there. *he got my "sour powder" then he was, " okay, then i have nothing to say. i just look at him and laugh =)



Fuer's hand again! She is our number one, favorite sotong, thus i drew this on her. we just laugh about it and it was her tattoo for the day. She is my sha sotong!



okay i looked so tired because i just cried before snapping this picture, i cried because Chard actually did a video for me, he was so clever in selecting the song, the pictures, the lyrics that the combination just summons my tears, i kept crying.
Thank you Chard, thank you for all you have done for me!

*love you~

Wei and me! =) However, this little Mrs, actually commented my eyes are small!! =( *hmpf* but what to do? she is a precious in my eyes, *precious sis~* so forgiven and being loved okay?? =)

Today i woke up early for service! *so proud of myself* i think the happiest person is Chard! It is because he dont have to give more than 20 missed calls for me to struggle getting up. When he called, i have already bathed! *laughs* think you are too late, my boy!

Couldn't get any seats initially, so i used my favorite method, get help! i called my sister checking out whether she had spare seats, she told me that she have three, and i took it. i needed eleven seats, so have to grab any of them if they are being spotted. Then next target was PUI MAN,ah jie, she was even cuter, because i spotted her on the same Terrence and her row seems empty, i purposely called her and ask her. *Ching ching* i got another four more seats! so still lack of four seats, and being a nice member of the church and because her care for me [i hope] she gave me the remaining four seats which i needed! Thank you so much!! Dorcas came and was pretty amazed, ( i know what are you people thinking about,)however no, she was not amazed with me, but the people of today's morning service people, they really was early. normally Sunday we will get a chance to sit at Alpha at least, but not today, so you can imagine the people there today, it can be described as "people mountain, people sea" God moved greatly today, it has been such a long time that i felt the way i did! we were like praying then Pst Kong told us to clap our hands and release our faith, and letting God help us to worry less, for a born-worrier like me, needed it alot. i teared when clapping because i really felt the calmness, it is just a very amazing feeling.

I am going to fast for Monday, Tuesdaya and Thursday, it might not be 24hours fast, but i know if i have the right motive and motivation, God will see it too!! =)

okay, enough of the typing.

P/S People, i am busy but bored too, can you all like meet up with me?? i miss you people loads!

Chard did this, he is simply awesome!! i love him loads!!

it have been a long time since i have updated my blog,ever since i came back??

i have pitched for my film, do greatly hope will be chosen, so that i can control the timing. *right? God?? =)*
today is 16 July 2007, five months after my popo have passed away, i miss her badly still. Each time i think of her, i will either just smile, or have tears dwelling in my eyes. you might think i am emotional, however, to think about, missing and feeling sad for one person that have impacted my life greatly is something, (for the first time) not wrong. well, God has given us the right to feel for things, because He have given us FEELings.

I have always been wondering, if one day, it is my turn and time to leave this world, who will actually really cry and think of me. Imagine, instead of people being sad about your loss, or your exsistence on earth have "time-up", they are like celebrating with champagne and partying, i think i will like feel even more sad than leaving them.

I remember Dorcas once said, what matters and makes people remember you is not what were you or what you have done, but is when you manage to leave a legacy behind. which is pretty true.

Was talking to Melissa the other day and came to a conclusion, raising up to higher level is one thing, but have to really bear in mind that "Light produces Light". wanting to discipline people is one thing, but looking at self and the level of discipline before doing it, is a totally different thing. I then talked to Chard and really talked a lot. about both Spiritual stuff and our relationship, if we did not hold on, we might have long broken up, but he is such a nice BF, i dont seem willing to just shortchange myself, he thought the same way too, that is also a reason why we have not actually parted ways.

God, the joy of the Lord is my strength! i might be weary, tired and do not really want to carry on in certain things, but if the things are pleasing to you, i am willing to do it. because i need you for my strength.

*Find me in Your Holiness
Lead me in Your Righteousness
How i love You
Beautiful Saviour

When i'm weak You make me strong
Bearing my cross I carry on
How i need You
Heavenly Father

Search my heart oh Lord
You know my every thought
An open book to You
I place my all in Your hands

Falling at Your feet
As my whole world fades away
Falling at your feet
Let my life be wholly thine
My life be wholly thine
Jesus

Emmanuel
Emmanuel
Abba Father never let me go
Emmanuel
Emmanuel
Abba Father never let me go*

I am leaving Singapore later, now still updating blog while waiting for him to appear and then do some editing.
Chard ar! aku cinta kamu more and more le. As time passes by, i love you more. We had alot of "major" arguement, but all thanks to your patience and love, we manage to settle them and move on. I will be back REALLY SOON!! =) only for 4 days and 3 nights only. anyway, ni you sheng bing le, must take care and rest more. Drink a lot of water okay?

Pui man ah jie, you must also take care horz, recently the weather really cannot make it de, sometimes i wonder whether does it have moodswing. i know you will pop by my bloggy, so might as well just tell you all these. Drink MORE AND MORE water! =)

Mel, i love you, you are my sweetest pie! you must take care too ya? =) i EXPECT A SUPER BIG HUG FROM YOU!! *no excuses okay?*

wa, it is going to be an adventure, first time flying off without my parents and my sister. The weird feeling of lost and really weird. Lost because, i am suddenly so clueless of what i want to pack and bring, there is a packing list lohz.
hahz. anyway. He reach le.. blog again later, MAYBE.