I've never been the one to raise my hand

That was not me and now that's who I am

Because of you, I am standing tall.

My heart is full of endless gratitude

You were the one, the one to guide me through

Now I can see and I believe

It's only just beginning.

This is what we dream about

But the only question with me now

Is do I make you proud.

Stronger than I've ever been now

Never been afraid of standing out

But do I make you proud.

Everybody needs to rise up

Everybody needs to be loved

To be loved.
This is what we dream about

But the only question with me now

Is do I make you proud, do I make you proud.

The only question is, do I make you proud.
Stronger than I've ever been now

Never been afraid of standing out

Is do I make you proud

Do I make you proud

Popo i believe you are in good hands now, because i believe with all my heart and soul that you are with Daddy God in heaven, watching over us. Although my heart have a large part hating you have left us but then again, i am also happy you are off from medications, jabs, breathing aid, pains from all the joints, heard from Clarice that she saw you crying a couple of times.. i think it is the misery you have to pull through of your health condition, but rest assure, all these are over. today we clelbrated uncle James and aunty Suzie's birthdays, we saw the video clip being done by Karen to you, it was beautiful, all teared.. this year's chair only had one for Gong gong, it seems really really empty... i cried, because i miss you.. this song touched my heart really deeply.. and YES!! you made me really PROUD that you are my popo. Your sacrificial giving is carved into my heart, no matter how limited my heart might be, there will always be a VERY VERY BIG territory marked just for you!! WO HEN AI HEN AI POPO NI!!! you once said if i have no one to love me, or no boys want me, you would want me, i always remember that, you must also remember that ya? i will go and accompany you whenever i have the time... i will learn and work very hard.. i will compose a song just for you!! =) i want you to see all my achievements! YOU WILL BE UNFORGETTABLE!!!

okay. seeing people having boyfriends and stuff does get me to envy them and longs for one too.. but, however, i ponder, will that longing ever turn into a desperation? i dont want to be desperate looking for one... Jess jie said something that i find quite true.. she say," sometiemes the more you try searching for your that so called "Mr Right" you will be searching in vain.. when it is your time, it will come no matter what" hahaz.. Dont you all agree? i am tired of getting in to and out of relationship.. it is just taxing.. including if you get hurt in it, you need time to recover too.. it is not healthy at all..

i am tired of hearing people saying, "wow, they are so sweet, i hope my boyfriend can be like that too." " why cant my boyfriend be as caring as others?" i mean, i rather people envy me then i have to envy them right? a relationship have to go through some trials and tribulation to show the bond the two person have to pull them stronger in love and overcoming problems together isn't it? i'm waiting for my Mr Right and healing the wound which had been teared open again and again..

Most of the time people sees my cheerful moments, but only God sees my tears that i cried now and then when i feel the pain.. Love can be sweet and hurting sometimes.. only when both felt treasured then it can be successful, among them, trust, beliefs , communications cannot be exiled.. if not all it might bring could be simply pain, scars and hurt.. Love is not as easyas we think.. the honeymoon period can have so called an "expiry date" but ultimately is still the commitment you have for each other that really matters.. don't you think so?

Though sometimes i do ask God why can't i have someone to love me now? like until the very breath of mine, because i longs for a true love.. but then to think again.. i might as well just keep focusing on Him, and who knows? the greatest man might just come into my life when the time is right.. hahaz..

God, No Longer I who Lives But Christ That Lives In Me!!

=)

What love can be greater than my Heavenly Father's Agape Love?
Nothing, simply nothing..