okay, my days which i havent been blogging was fun..

firstly on Monday, after work , i went to Jowell to eat Sakae... we ate extremely little( which was a miracle to me, cuz i usually dont eat, i just gorge on them)

okay, MISS JOWELL OEI ME LOHZ... SO REALLY MUST UPDATE.. wahahahaz.. so short liaoz, give her oei, later i become shorter how?? tell me?? hahaz...

win liaoz, i am crapping and talking rubbish once again! =) anyway, i seems to have become insane like ever since -you-know-what-happened.. so ya.. bear with me people, bear with me..

i have been a bad girl today, i admit.. i drank 2 full glasses of Martell.. just felt like it, so drank with my dad... but obviously my drinking skills have weaken since i haven been drinking for a year or so.. ya lohz... so i am also not sure whether is it a good sign anot.. hahaz.. crazy me ya? dont you think so??

oh well... i think i am just tired of being so guai and stuff.. and decided i shall drink abit.. cuz well, i am afraid of the outcome of my result like tomorrow.. or rather today, because now is already 12.26am..

ANYWAY, let's just talk about 13/12/06 ba... i went to Jowell's birthday, bbq, party.. had fun!! lots of them actually... ever since 21/11/06.. after the breakup.. this have been the most enjoyable day... hahahz... although, being asked by some of them where is him and stuff, the wrose part would be memories being brought up once again after so long.. or rather, i have never let go... haiz...

God, help me!! please!! i need Your strength! You pulled me through from so many problems.. God help me to pull through this situation as well!!

okay... i admit that i am leaning on my own strength and effort no wonder i felt so tired and drained... wearing back a mask seems so much easier than showing the real me after like so so long..putting a front which most people dont know felt so much "fitting in". well.. i am tired of all these le... but the word 'Pride' just keep hindering me..

Kenrus had broke the fear, anger, hatred and pride by not confronting me with just my flaws but being covered with prayer.. indeed as he said, "Salt is salty" well.. i am going to embark on a whole new christian life... maybe not really from the scratch.. at least is around the basic and for me to be able to have a clearer and newer vision of what i should do now... the year 2006 is coming to an end.. i wanna be a renewed person to welcome 2007... I will always remember what sis.Dorcas said, " always remember that whatever you do, you are serving God and not man..always know why the reason you do things... your focus should be God and if you realise you end up doing things because YOU want to and no longer GOD wants to,then that is the wrong purpose and focus already."

think i shall end here for now.. =D i will be fine!!