Hey people!! i think some might not know.. but we are over... totally over and done with..
reason?? hmmm...i think that we both feel and know we are not right for one another.. and that is all.. yup!! dont worry ya? i am okay le.. it was quite hard to let go, i admit.. but i believe what you have to do, you just have to do it that's all.. well... God is our HEALER!!
YA !! I BELIEVE HE NOT ONLY CAN HEAL OUR ILLNESSES, HE CAN HEAL OUR EMOTIONS AND HEART TOO!! =D

GOD, I BELIEVE IN YOU!!! YOU HAVE HEALED ME.. THANK YOU MY LORD!!

Seriously, after the break-up, i felt so much lighter.. hmm.. but it was still the memories i cant really forsake.. i suddenly miss pui man alot.. the times she cared for me, times we were being lame.. and her scolding me for not taking care of myself in a comical way.. hahaz.. but owell... i still get to see her once in a while lahz.. still not bad.. hahahz....

wei told me that at this period of time, i need a helping hand to pull me through, to carry on..
i think it is true.. and i told her, " even if one day, i really find that i dont have the strength to go on, i will always know that i have a group of people who i know will keep supporting me.."
yup.. =D

I WILL SING
I WILL WORSHIP YOU
I WILL BOW MYSELF DOWN
HUMBLY AT YOUR THRONE
I WILL GIVE ANYTHING
I WILL GIVE EVERYTHING TO YOU ALONE

I LONG TO BE THE BRIDE THAT YOU'RE RETURNING
FOR DRESSED IN GARMENT WHITE AND WRINKLE FREE
I HAVE NO EARTHLY LOVE THAT I AM HOLDING TO
FOR YOU'RE THE ONE
WHO MEAN EVERYTHING TO ME

YOU ARE THE FAITHFUL GOD
WHO KEEPS YOUR COVENANT
THERE'S NOT ONE THING
YOU'VE SAID YOU HAVEN'T DONE
AND SOMEDAY WHEN I SEE YOU
STANDING FACE TO FACE
MY PRAISE FOR YOU WILL ONLY HAVE BEGUN

this song flooded my very mind...it was the song that Elaine sang when she was 12 years old when she had her consecration.. once she sang at my house, when she taught my sister and i guitar and slept over at our house that night.. she nearly cried.. i felt something in my little tiny heart.. that was the first time.. when my heart decide to open further to allow God to really intercede in my life..
the next time i heard this was last week's cellgroup during worship.. sis. Dorcas, or rather, dorcas.. she read out the lyrics to us.. i cried.. that has became my longing, deep within my soul.. i always have been doing things in my own way and manner thinking i am doing for Him.. but in true fact i dont want to listen to what He has for me.. i am afraid to take up responsiblity.. i am also afraid of not doing well enough to please Him.. it was very torturing... but i refuse to admit it.. but this song melted my heart, and reminded me of His greatness, the wonderful thing He have done in my life, letting me to live, letting me have alot of things, blessings and friends and family.. i am ready to fight this fight... i know as i have decided to type this sentence, attacks are on their way, but i am a child of God, and if enemies come attacking me, i know my God would let them flee in 7 different directions, i will pull through!! =D

Gym,gym,gym,gym and more gym pleaseeeee!! hahahz
I simply just love going to gym!! why?? because, i can shed fats!! hahahz..
I LOVE THE TREADMILL!! it helped lose the most calories, comparing to the other equipments that i tried.. wahahahz... okay forgive my craziness.. there are a few causes.. firstly.. i am in office now, skiving.. cuz there is really nothing to do.. (T_T )secondly, i went to a gym at Redhill with Da kor for the very first time.. and i enjoy it alot!! i long to exercise but had no companion , determination nor motivation.. but now there is da kor!! and his choir i/c, Frankie!! hahaz.. yeah.. and i thank God that i am a student!! =D even though the price is just cheaper by one dollar.. but it is good enough.. i can buy.. hmm. what can i buy??.. erm, newspaper?? mentos?? haiya, in short, i can still do quite alot of things with it.. whahahaz...

OH LORD, MY GOD
ALL I DESIRE IS YOU
OH LORD, MY GOD
ALL I DESIRE IS YOU

MORE PRECIOUS THAN SLIVER
MORE COSTLY THAN GOLD
NO RICHES ON THE EARTH COMPARES TO YOU
AND WHAT CAN THIS WORLD OFFER
WHEN ALL I DESIRE IS YOU

AND WHAT CAN THIS WORLD OFFER
WHEN ALL I DESIRE IS YOU

So what if i am a Christian?? i am proud of my belief!! and that is me, if you dont like it, just get out of my sight!! i believe, i have never step into your boundary nor religion, so as a form of fairness, cant you just live my religion alone.. in the past ten over months, you and ___ and the whole bunch have been trying to discriminate me.. i already lie low, as what _________ has suggested.. but why cant you leave me alone?! now is school holiday, and i was enjoying it, you were the one who viewed me in friendster, not me.. i am not that free anyway, must you send such insulting bulletine to me?? You are nothing so great you know?? think by insulting christianity, able to gain popularity to yourself? just stop dreaming.. face reality.. all the rest just like enjoying a clown making a fool out of himself.. please wake up.. you are really not that smart..
to TIFFANY, i dare to mention your name.. let's make it clear, you have always been the irritating one.. cant you just try noticing your surrounding? so what most of my friends are christians, at least we share a dream, we have visions and dreams that we strive to obtain.. it definitely beats you just playing WOW all the time, and calling me a bitch right?? wanna say so much about me, mention my name, and we will make it "FUN" trust me.. dont keep thinking that you need attention.. sometimes making so much unneeded noises/ comments only invites irritation.. i wont be like you and put that i will advise you.. because this is a true fact!!
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for people who read this.. sorry if it sounded not me, just need to let it out, so angry at what some of my classmates have commented.. made my blood boil.. but i am okay.. hahahz.. I AM PROUD THAT I AM A CHILD OF GOD, NOTHING IS GONNA CHANGE THE FACT!!