okay. seeing people having boyfriends and stuff does get me to envy them and longs for one too.. but, however, i ponder, will that longing ever turn into a desperation? i dont want to be desperate looking for one... Jess jie said something that i find quite true.. she say," sometiemes the more you try searching for your that so called "Mr Right" you will be searching in vain.. when it is your time, it will come no matter what" hahaz.. Dont you all agree? i am tired of getting in to and out of relationship.. it is just taxing.. including if you get hurt in it, you need time to recover too.. it is not healthy at all..

i am tired of hearing people saying, "wow, they are so sweet, i hope my boyfriend can be like that too." " why cant my boyfriend be as caring as others?" i mean, i rather people envy me then i have to envy them right? a relationship have to go through some trials and tribulation to show the bond the two person have to pull them stronger in love and overcoming problems together isn't it? i'm waiting for my Mr Right and healing the wound which had been teared open again and again..

Most of the time people sees my cheerful moments, but only God sees my tears that i cried now and then when i feel the pain.. Love can be sweet and hurting sometimes.. only when both felt treasured then it can be successful, among them, trust, beliefs , communications cannot be exiled.. if not all it might bring could be simply pain, scars and hurt.. Love is not as easyas we think.. the honeymoon period can have so called an "expiry date" but ultimately is still the commitment you have for each other that really matters.. don't you think so?

Though sometimes i do ask God why can't i have someone to love me now? like until the very breath of mine, because i longs for a true love.. but then to think again.. i might as well just keep focusing on Him, and who knows? the greatest man might just come into my life when the time is right.. hahaz..

God, No Longer I who Lives But Christ That Lives In Me!!

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What love can be greater than my Heavenly Father's Agape Love?
Nothing, simply nothing..