okay... i admit that i am leaning on my own strength and effort no wonder i felt so tired and drained... wearing back a mask seems so much easier than showing the real me after like so so long..putting a front which most people dont know felt so much "fitting in". well.. i am tired of all these le... but the word 'Pride' just keep hindering me..

Kenrus had broke the fear, anger, hatred and pride by not confronting me with just my flaws but being covered with prayer.. indeed as he said, "Salt is salty" well.. i am going to embark on a whole new christian life... maybe not really from the scratch.. at least is around the basic and for me to be able to have a clearer and newer vision of what i should do now... the year 2006 is coming to an end.. i wanna be a renewed person to welcome 2007... I will always remember what sis.Dorcas said, " always remember that whatever you do, you are serving God and not man..always know why the reason you do things... your focus should be God and if you realise you end up doing things because YOU want to and no longer GOD wants to,then that is the wrong purpose and focus already."

think i shall end here for now.. =D i will be fine!!